I am single. I have been single for the past eight years now. During those eight years, I have learned so much about myself, gained some self confidence, and worked on being happy with me. I have gone to therapy, bought my first car, took surfing lessons, started running, acquired an excellent job (which I adore), made new friends and lost some old ones, ran my first marathon, went back to school for my masters, moved to the city, volunteered, and traveled a bit. I'm pretty happy with my life and consider myself lucky. At one point, I was the complete opposite; I hated the way my body looked, the way I acted, my relationships (or lack there of).
I try to remind myself of how far I've come and focus on the positive aspects of my life. Be present, not worry about the future. But sometimes, it's just hard to remain so positive. Everyone around me is in a relationship and I'm kinda down in the dumps about being single today. I am so over dating. Meeting boys in bars, on-line dating, awkward first dates, being stood up...it's so draining. I just want to meet someone I have an undeniable connection with and have that guy not be a tool. Someone who is a nice, sweet, and genuine person. Is that too much to ask??? Sometimes I think it is and I will be single forever. Ugh.
